My dad’s cousin passed away not too long ago & today we attended the memorial service. Weddings, funerals, & baptisms all seem to affect me in the same way. They all call me to examine my life.
Weddings, of course, cause me to check my heart. I am forced to ask myself the hard questions: Do I love “the Bear” more than I did yesterday, but still love him with a newlywed’s fervor? Am I tender, thoughtful & growing better with age, or worse? I am reminded of how often Barry has given of himself for me. How often he has given until it hurts–with no thought of himself. I think about our wedding & how our whole lives stretched out before us with such promise—That is where I am in Christ NOW. Here I stand on the edge of eternity holding shyly onto my Savior’s hand, not knowing what’s coming or where we will end up, but I know that I can trust Him, & that our future together holds great promise!
Baptisms make me cry.. they always do. There is something beautiful in that sacrament of the church. The symbolism & memories of how I felt when I first came to Christ. The awe, the love, & the peace….ah yes, the peace. Jesus, please let me never forget what You have done, & help me to never take that work on the cross for granted!
Funerals ….they are so hard! I always sit & wonder what people will say about me after I’m gone. Today was no different. When faced with my mortality I always resolve to be kinder…slower to anger & determine to make better use of my time, because my life is draining away before my very eyes. Today I decided that I want my funeral to more about Jesus than me. If there’s anything good in me it’s because of Him. If I was a good mom it was because He made me better. If I was a good wife, it’s because He taught me how. I sang because He gave me the song! My accomplishments were all about Him & for Him.
We often think that when death comes to us that it is something new or that our lot is harder than others. No, God is not surprised at where we are. Death, though difficult, is only a part of life….Just the final step. I long for the day when death will be swallowed up in victory through Jesus Christ, & the grave no longer has any sting!
2 Corinthians 13:5
Examine yourselves to see if your faith is genuine. Test yourselves. Surely you know that Jesus Christ is among you, if not, you have failed the test of genuine faith.